I'm waiting for the snow to start falling

Woho!

Since I'm not submitting anything else.. here's a new avatar. That's always something, right? It's supposed to be uh.. a part of my character Blut. I didn't even finish the picture, I just cut out a tiny bit and yeah, here it is. I'M SO PROUD.

Let's hope there's more to come from me in the future, okay! I'm still here watching awesome people though, so.. yeah. I'm pretty active in that kind of way, at least.

Not much more to say. Now I'm off to bed.
Goodnighty!

And oh the mood-thingy won't work so.. I guess I feel optimism this time too? Not sure about that, but oh whatever!

NOW I'm off!

Let's just call it PMS.. 'cause everybody does, right.

Bawww. I feel like erase my whole gallery and uh.. start over again.. someday, sometime. When I'm like.. ready. Or something. When I got something to share with the world, something I feel.. worth sharing. I know I would think "no, you have to start somewhere", if it was anyone else saying this.. but this just feels so.. not good. It's not like I have submitted much anyways so I guess it doesn't matter.

I don't know. I miss my camera. It wasn't the best, it wasn't advanced at all.. it pretty much sucked. Or maybe I did. Probably both. Anyway.. I long to the day when I'm able to get a new one. A better one. Something good enough to give me the possibility to, you know, improve. A bit. At least. 'Cause this is something I really love to do. Something I've always loved.

And oh I shouldn't be complaining. I could always draw. 'Cause I love that to. Photographing are just one way to play around and express feeling with. I just don't feel I can "express" anything with my drawings, it's mostly just.. or well, I express things, but not my own feelings exactly. Ah. Rambledumbassramble.

I sound so stupid and I hate to sound depressed and miserable and unthankful and all that. But whatever, I don't think many read this anyway and however sometimes you just have to get it out of your head, type it down somewhere. And this seemed like a good place for that.

I probably should do something but I don't know what yet. I just don't want people to get the wrong image about me. And that sounds even more stupid. 'Cause I don't usually judge people by their galleries, anyhow.. I guess that's what happens. And uh. I'm not ashamed of what I've published, I'm just not.. satisfied. Whatever. Bleh.

This is more about something else. I wish so much and never seems to get there when I can fulfill these pretty simple dreams. And that's so damn annoying.

Sooooooo... I'm done complaining about meaningless stuff.

Uh don't listen to me.

It will be allright. Soon enough, I guess.

-offffffff-